1. |
SPF 5,000
02:45
|
|||
|
They spent the week in ruthless sun
Their inhibitions all undone
Tunnel vision's in effect, disregarding disconnect
How could anything go wrong
We we watched the fireworks from the beach
Suppressing tension underneath
Pretending that we couldn't hear the echos bouncing off the pier
The cue that it was time to leave
Is the outcome understood
If we stay like this for good?
Always something going wrong, "please don't go," a routine song
Detrimental firewood
Now everything I know is false
It started out a perfect waltz
But we kept tripping at the simplest of movements
as we seasoned all our wounds in table salt
Something that I've come to find
Is you keep spending all your time
Looking for a role to fill in everybody else's film
You're just an extra on the side
They never give you any lines, no
|
||||
2. |
Doors Closing
03:07
|
|||
|
Love, I promised I tried my best
I never wanted this to end so sour
But stranger, how could you have been content
There were nothing but omens
From the first couple hours
I have the evidence of a paradise, yet
All I can recall are sacrifices
Darling, I know we thought the same
There'll never come a day where we split
But old friend, truly can it be love
If we've both had enough
Is this what you think's fun?
I have the fragments of utopia scattered in my car
All I remember, though, is wondering how we ever got this far
Your smile in pictures, hints of fragrance from your sweater
Will throwing shit away really make me feel better?
And I don't wanna think of looking out at Toronto
Scared I'll cave and try to call you back tomorrow
And every holiday that goes by alone
I sit and think of all the plans we used to make
But I can't go back, don't let me go back
And now that I'm finally all alone
Just got myself to blame
For my endless lack of motivation
And my shitty grades
So when you're on-stage in the future
Please forget my name
So you don't choke on any remnants
Of this bitter taste
|
||||
3. |
Sober Summers
03:05
|
|||
|
She's scared, uncomfortable
Won't leave, you sure got quite a hold
She's got that thing you need
A lack of insurgency
She's not the first to find
Things just get worse with time
I thought you changed but it's clearly that you didn't
Thought you learned from before but you're not any different
She thinks the way it is
Is how it's supposed to be
She even puts up with your
Drinking every night
Don't you remember all the
Sober summertimes back home
We still had fun but now you
Hide from the sun
We'll get married with a beautiful reception
Watch her settle with his terminal pretension
Wage war quietly so we don't wake the children
But it’s love, I just exist for you
(I promise he's a great guy
I swear it's not so bad
Trust me it's just a rough day
I swear he's not so bad)
I thought you changed but it's clear that you didn't
Thought you learned from before but you're not any different
I find your name, everywhere it is written
Took a pen to the page and I made sure it was hidden
'Cause you said you would change but it's clear that you didn't
|
||||
4. |
Downward Slant
02:50
|
|||
|
Nudged awake by gentle sun
Abundant time before my shift
I roll over, back to bed
Then wake up at 2:06
Force myself into a costume
Then I stumble to my shoes
I’m a dumpster fire, I’ll
Try to keep away from you
Do my obligations truly exist
If I’m 200 miles away or
If I’m gone a couple days
And is it really so unhealthy to live
Just to make it to these weekends
Where I do nothing but pretend
I’m not blowing off my future
That I’m not a total loser
I got plenty of excuses
You won’t ever know I’m mostly useless
And I always try to change
It only lasts about a day
And praise, it only makes me
Stay the same
And when I look at you,
The way you never catch a break
I’ll always be a child
I’ll never not be late
I spend so much time at colleges
That aren’t even mine
All my savings take the form of
Instruments I shouldn’t buy
Please don’t ask me to explain
Because I can’t
Everything I do is so insanely backwards
And my life’s a downward slant
|
||||
5. |
All on You
03:51
|
|||
|
It’s all on you, it’s all on you
You put yourself right where you are
No one but you, always been you
You let yourself drift off this far
You cast yourself away, you got nobody left
All that you hoped for was the opposite of that
But what result did you expect from how you live?
Quarantines don’t typically make friends
It’s all on you, it’s all on you
You wallow in your pseudo pain
No one but you, always been you
Keeping yourself from trying again
You sabotage yourself when things get tight because
Whatever would you do if things went right?
Hoarding all your problems just to write a melody
Thinking you’re too cool for real therapy
It’s all on you, it’s all on you
There’s no debate, it’s all on
It’s all on you, all on that
Barricade of stubbornness you made
Grow the hell up, man
You’re everything you judge in others
You’re way too old to act so
Victimized again
Toss those bummer records
Take a break from those four walls
We love you, but you’re freaking out us all
You say you wanna feel the sound
You wanna sit there all day long
No, you don’t wanna leave the house
You gotta write the perfect song
Nobody thinks you’re fun
It’s clear that you’re a joke
We’re all waiting till you’re done
Pretending that you’ll be a pro
You say you wanna feel the sound
You wanna sit there all day long
No, you don’t wanna leave the house
You gotta write the perfect song
Nobody thinks you’re fun
Nobody thinks you can
We’re all waiting till your finished
With your silly little band
You’re right to think it’s all on you
It’s not ambiguous at all
Apology can only say so much
Little effort yet you conjure quite a fuss
All the memories you missed for better plans
Then expect us to be waving from the stands
|
||||
6. |
Something Else
03:25
|
|||
|
Is it really the same sky that we're looking at?
Are these really the same stars we gazed upon
Course set to full speed ahead but I keep looking back
Do you remember the bridge that would connect our heads?
Keep forgetting I was the demolition man
Can't help but stare at the night when I'm up late in bed
Taking shots in the dark, would you call me a friend?
Knocked the wind out of my core
Can't get the taste off of my tongue
All of the memories make me sore
So many good things overrun
By distance, time, and unconcern
Make the same mistakes each year, we never learn
I couldn't handle it then, what makes me think a change
Could have come over you in the past several months but
Too much has gotta be better than nothing at all
I considered every nuance a constant
Being alone had never seemed like an option
It hurts that you'd ever consider me dishonest
'Cause every day your crying voice is on my conscience
It seemed so far away, so foreign of an idea
And when the moment came I didn't know what to feel
It seemed so far away, so foreign of an idea
The moment came and went, I still don't know what to feel
(this is where a solo would go.... ope; here it comes right now!!)
Make the same mistakes each year
We're making new regrets each day
I wish my thoughts could be replaced with something else
|
||||
7. |
Walk in the Door
04:20
|
|||
|
The drums ain't letting up
I can't hear myself think
I check the time again
Handed a cup of something
I don't wanna drink
Looking for exit signs
Won't you walk in the door for me
Won't you come in and smile at me
And make it all better
Everybody's got a monster in their mind
Always clawing at the walls trying to get outside
Who am I to think their suffering's less than mine
You'll be just fine
But all I'm yearning for
Is seeing you come through that door
The awful things we used to say
Never meant nothing anyway
It's really not so bad
I'll give you everything I have
All over again
Won't you walk in the door for me
Won't you come in and smile at me
And make it all better
I don't know what to do alone
So would you come and wheel me around
The bar is dying down
And I look up to see
You in the corner
I say our love's not dead
Then you bite off my arms and legs
And beg me to stay
I'm barricading the door
I turn away from the door
Pretend there isn't a door
For me
I'm barricading the door
I turn away from the door
Forget there's even a door
For me
(I got lost and I'm sorry
I know things are too far gone)
|
||||
8. |
Rest Your Head
05:02
|
|||
|
Would you rest your head on me again?
Would you tell me how you feel and then
I'll devote myself entirely
As if that's something you would ever come to need
I know that this can't be healthy
To always be bracing for pain
You don't know how happy you can make me
I want you to feel the same
Pretend you didn’t spend all day at home
Don't forget to forget how to live alone
You went out with them again last night
I’ll be less boring next time
Would you rest your head on me again
Would you tell me I'm your only friend
I'll weigh you down without regard
And when this ship sinks I'll act like I don't know why and
I know that this can't be healthy
To always be bracing for pain
You don't know how happy you can make me
I want you to feel the same
There’s an ocean in between us
But I'm right across the room
You're walking over now
Remind myself again to smile
You're everything I need I know I know I think I know
|
||||
9. |
Second Chance 2: II
03:56
|
|||
|
Hope you don't mind if I just drive across the country
To play music for some strangers who most likely won't remember
Hope that it's fine that after all that time and money,
Making sure I got to classes, I turned out to be a freak
You didn't know that I would be so self-destructive,
That the things that'd make me happy would be so
Selfish and absurd
Can we rewind back to the moment that I messed up?
Might be quite the task to find it 'cause I mess up all the time
Spend my time sitting watching all my friends fly past me
Getting married, graduating; I'm at home stuck in my head
As if these microscopic triumphs added up to something
More than silly noises, you can find me in my bed
And if you think I live the dream, then you're right
'Cause every night I'm always scared of what comes next
"Please don't give me your attention," says the moody kid who
Screams all of his problems on a stage
And all those years ago when you bought me that guitar,
Now you wish I'd gotten bored of it before it got this far
So won't you cut your losses and just let me fail alone?
Had a thousand second chances, please don't give me more to blow
And I don't mean to put words in your mouth but
I just feel so guilty, everything you ever gave me
I just threw it all away
And I hate putting words in your mouth but
I'm so undeserving, everything you ever gave me
I just threw it all away
When I'm forty, cutting grass for fifteen dollars,
Maybe I'll have learned my lesson
But even then it's less than likely
|
||||
10. |
Contrast
05:37
|
|||
|
Wait for the train today, the sun is beating down
The Amtrak’s a little late. we’re all just standing ‘round
My hands sweat nervously as I’m grasping both my bags
A young man with a quiet voice and hair down to his nose
Numb with naivety stuck in a nervous pose
Falls to the role of being someone’s biggest fan
He's still convinced he makes the plans
I’ll give everything, everything, everything to prove
I’d give all of me, all of me, every cell for you
Would it be cool if you just put it all on hold?
The things you like to do must have surely gotten old
You keep your eyes on me, don’t ever look away
A deer caught in a trap, a kid stuck in a well
Your ankles tied to blocks you chiseled out yourself
Ask him hey, when’s the last time you truly laughed?
It doesn't have to be like that
I’ll give everything, everything, everything
To prove
I’d give all of me, give of me, every cell
For you
I’ll give everything, everything, everything
To prove
I’d kill all of me, all of me, every cell
For you
Just go away, just go away
Once when I was 6, I slammed the fridge
And all the shelves, they fell to the floor
Then I watched my mom spend half an hour
Putting them back on the door
Felt like I should’ve been crucified for some of the things I did
A total nightmare of a kid
So I wait for the bus today, the snow is piling on
You were so much warmer in the sun
I’d give everything, everything, everything
To prove
I’ll fix all of me, all of me, at least some of it
For you
I’d give everything for you
Stand on the stage and we
Appear as silhouettes
Against the sunlight, we are darkness
|
||||
If you like Equipment, you may also like:
Somewhere City
by Origami Angel
supported by 22 fans who also own “Ruthless Sun”
ALL YOU NEED TO DO IS CAAAAALL MEEEEEE AND I'LL TAKE KENILWORTH AVENUE TO 193
go to album
Graduating Life - An Introduction To Rock & Roll
by Counter Intuitive Records
supported by 20 fans who also own “Ruthless Sun”
sums up the current feelings of being gen z...
go to album
YOU'RE NOT THERE
by Pretty Matty
A new track from Pretty Matty finds the band in top form, delivering clean yet crunchy hook-laden power pop with trademark high energy.
go to album
v/a The Things That Shaped Us Together
by Various Artist
This outstanding compilation of bands from Indonesia puts a focus on atmospheric pop and rock music, with hooks 20-stories high.
go to album
Taking cues from Midwestern emo and early ’10 pop punk, this Leeds, UK outfit are full of heart— not to mention hooks.
go to album
NOW That's What I Call Music Vol. 420
by Counter Intuitive Records
